Carry
A Memoir of Survival on Stolen Land

A powerful, poetic memoir about what it means to exist as a Métis woman in America, told in snapshots of the author's encounters with gun violence--for readers of Jesmyn Ward and Terese Mailhot.

Toni Jensen grew up in the Midwest around guns: As a girl, she learned how to shoot birds with her father, a card-carrying member of the NRA. As an adult, she's had guns waved in her face, and felt their silent threat on the concealed carry campus where she teaches. And she has always known she is not alone. She is no stranger to the violence enacted on the bodies of indigenous women, on indigenous land, and the ways it is hidden, ignored, forgotten.

In Carry, Jensen maps her personal experience onto the historical, exploring how history is lived in and through the body and redefining the language we use to speak about violence in America. In the title chapter, Jensen recalls the discrimination she faced in college, from her roommate to her faculty adviser. "The Worry Line" explores the gun and gang violence in her neighborhood the year her daughter was born. "At the Workshop" focuses on her graduate school years, during which a classmate wrote stories killing off thinly veiled versions of his workshop peers. In "Women in the Fracklands," Jensen takes the reader inside Standing Rock during the Dakota Access pipeline protests, as well as the peril faced by women in regions overcome by the fracking boom.

In prose at once forensic and deeply emotional, Toni Jensen shows herself to be a brave new voice and a fearless witness to her own difficult history--as well as to the violent cultural landscape in which she finds her coordinates. With each chapter, Carry reminds us that surviving in one's country is not the same as surviving one's country.