Forager, Michelle Dowd
Forager, Michelle Dowd
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Forager
Field Notes for Surviving a Family Cult: A Memoir

Author: Michelle Dowd

Narrator: Michelle Dowd

Unabridged: 7 hr 15 min

Format: Digital Audiobook Download

Published: 03/07/2023


Synopsis

A moving, heartbreaking, and lyrical true story of the author’s escape from an apocalyptic cult—and the survival skills that led to her freedom.
 
My family prepared me for the end of the world, but I know how to survive on what the earth yields.
 
As a child, Michelle Dowd grew up on a mountain in the Angeles National Forest. She was born into an ultra-religious cult—or the Field as they called it—started in the 1930s by her grandfather, a mercurial, domineering, and charismatic man who convinced generations of young male followers that he would live 500 years and ascend to the heavens when doomsday came. Comfort and care are sins, Michelle is told. As a result, she was forced to learn the skills necessary to battle hunger, thirst, and cold; she learned to trust animals more than humans; and most importantly, she learned how to survive in the natural world.
 
At the Field, a young Michelle lives a life of abuse, poverty, and isolation, as she obeys her family’s rigorous religious and patriarchal rules—which are so extreme that Michelle is convinced her mother would sacrifice her, like Abraham and Isaac, if instructed by God. She often wears the same clothes for months at a time; she is often ill and always hungry for both love and food. She is taught not to trust Outsiders, and especially not Quitters, nor her own body and its warnings.
 
But as Michelle gets older, she realizes she has the strength to break free. Focus on what will sustain, not satiate you, she tells herself. Use everything. Waste nothing. Get to know the intricacies of the land, like the intricacies of your body. And so she does.
 
Using stories of individual edible plants and their uses to anchor each chapter, Forager is both a searing coming-of-age story and a meditation on the ways in which understanding nature can lead to freedom, even joy.
 

Reviews

Goodreads review by Lacey on January 22, 2023

I had the hardest time with the writing style of this memoir. It is written in present tense as we move throughout the author’s childhood, and it can be difficult to ascertain exactly ‘when’ we are at any given time. She would randomly drop an age in every once in a while, and that did help, but ove......more

Goodreads review by Alicia on November 08, 2022

One of my favorite reads ever, and I read about 400 books a year. Tragic, mesmerizing and absolutely beautifully written. While our lives look utterly different on the outside, I also related so much to Dowd and her childhood. Full review to come on our family homesteading/foraging blog closer to it......more

Goodreads review by Elizabeth on November 14, 2023

Forager is an interesting look at The Field, a cult that was based (mostly) in California. The book connects different aspects of foraging with snippets of memories about growing up in The Field. Overall, I found the book quite interesting and enjoyed and appreciated the author's voice throughout th......more

Goodreads review by Meghan on March 08, 2023

Thank you to the publisher and author, for this free review copy. Out now! @algonquinbooks I wanted to love this book after reading the blurbs and the synopsis. But, I was so glad to be done with it. I felt it was very repetitive, and it could not keep my attention. I will say, the second half was M......more

Goodreads review by Sascha on March 20, 2023

4 1/2 There have been many times when I have read a non-fiction work and have had a very difficult time wrapping my head around its reality. Frequently, people who are searching for something fall under the spell of a pied piper, an individual who makes so many enticing claims that they seemingly hav......more


Quotes

“A harrowing, engrossing story of survival amid painful circumstances… Heartbreaking and difficult to put down, this book lyrically chronicles an impressive rise out of illness, poverty, and indoctrination… enthralling.”
Kirkus Reviews

"Listen to me: get this book in your hands now and prepare to lose a couple nights of sleep because you won’t be able to put it down. Michelle Dowd indeed had a chilling childhood, but that’s not what will keep you turning these pages. It’s the lyricism of language and complex characters you can’t stop thinking about it. For anyone who’s ever felt lost, this book is for you. For anyone who’s ever loved, this book is for you. For anyone who has yearned to understand where they fit in the natural world, this is your guidebook."
—Jennifer Pastiloff, bestselling author of On Being Human

"On the surface, Forager is about dramatic circumstances most of us will never experience--growing up inside a doomsday cult. This unusual lens, however, also mirrors more universal questions, such as how to build meaning out of trauma, how to tell the stories of our lives even as those lives intersect with others', how nature is a healing force even as we participate in its destruction. Michelle Dowd takes on the real, sticky, human issues without easy answers or platitudes and with a voice that is fully her own."
—Gina Frangello, author of Blow Your House Down
 
"Dazzling in depth, chilling in its revelations, Michelle Dowd’s memoir of a cult childhood proves how a life designed to be holy often turns evil. Dowd forages childhood experiences in an effort to come to terms with a family’s errant divinity—a fanaticism that leads to religious violence. What saves her, ultimately, is her biblical relationship with the natural world. Expansive in scope, brilliant in its undertaking, Dowd sifts through a wreckage of memory to create a survival guide for the apocalyptic brutality of Christian extremism."
—Janisse Ray, author of Ecology of a Cracker Childhood
 
"Michelle Dowd's bounty of a memoir offers us not just a survival guide, but the most ingenious map for sustenance in both body and spirit during dark times. In a world that prefers singular goals and simple answers, Forager finds power and joy in sharp-eyed, keen-fingered wandering, and its vertiginous complexities will sustain you for years to come."
—Meredith Talusan, author of Fairest: A Memoir
 
"No matter who you are or where you’re from, Dowd will guide you by the hand into her beautiful and heartbreaking family forest to show with heroic vulnerability how you might glean life from both the flowers and the thorns of her own. This isn’t just a field guide for surviving a family cult, but a universal path through the dark and glorious wood of life itself. Forager is a forest in bloom, a stream on a sweltering day, a Polaris of hope, a masterpiece of storytelling and empathy. And when you step into the sunlight on the other side of this magnificent book, Dowd will have freed you right alongside herself."
—Drew Philp, author of A $500 House in Detroit