Today or Someday?
“One bottle is too many, and a thousand never enough.”

One bottle was too many. A thousand was never enough. For years, I told myself I had it handled. That it was just the stress. That I'd stop tomorrow. But tomorrow kept not coming. This is the unvarnished story of the road from looking like a success to becoming someone I didn't recognize — and the longer road back. It's about how alcohol takes a life apart so slowly you don't notice until almost everything is gone. About a fear of therapy that was, somehow, bigger than the fear of drinking myself out of existence. About the single decision that split my life in two. There's no triumph here. No twelve-step sermon. No "zero to hero." Just what actually happened — the lies, the mornings, the day I finally walked into that room, and everything that came after. If you've ever poured one more while promising yourself it was the last… If you've watched someone you love vanish behind a glass… If you're still waiting for "tomorrow" to start — You already know what this book is about. A first-person account of denial, recovery, and the strange, hard truth of admitting you're not in control of the thing you swore you controlled. I wrote it for one reason: so someone else could make the decision faster — without losing the years he lost. If even one listener hears this and decides to help themselves, it was worth writing.