I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die, Sarah J. Robinson
I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die, Sarah J. Robinson
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I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die
Finding Hope in the Darkness of Depression

Author: Sarah J. Robinson, Holly Oxhandler, PhD, LMSW

Narrator: Sarah J. Robinson

Unabridged: 8 hr 9 min

Format: Digital Audiobook Download

Published: 05/11/2021

Includes: Bonus Material Bonus Material Included


Synopsis

A compassionate, shame-free guide for your darkest days

“A one-of-a-kind book . . . to read for yourself or give to a struggling friend or loved one without the fear that depression and suicidal thoughts will be minimized, medicalized or over-spiritualized.”—Kay Warren, cofounder of Saddleback Church
 
What happens when loving Jesus doesn’t cure you of depression, anxiety, or suicidal thoughts? You might be crushed by shame over your mental illness, only to be told by well-meaning Christians to “choose joy” and “pray more.” So you beg God to take away the pain, but nothing eases the ache inside. As darkness lingers and color drains from your world, you’re left wondering if God has abandoned you. 
 
You just want a way out.
 
But there’s hope.
 
In I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die, Sarah J. Robinson offers a healthy, practical, and shame-free guide for Christians struggling with mental illness. With unflinching honesty, Sarah shares her story of battling depression and fighting to stay alive despite toxic theology that made her afraid to seek help outside the church. Pairing her own story with scriptural insights, mental health research, and simple practices, Sarah helps you reconnect with the God who is present in our deepest anguish and discover that you are worth everything it takes to get better.
 
Beautifully written and full of hard-won wisdom, I Love Jesus, But I Want to Die offers a path toward a rich, hope-filled life in Christ, even when healing doesn’t look like what you expect.

* This audiobook edition includes a downloadable PDF of appendices from the book.

About The Author

Sarah J. Robinson once believed her lifelong battle with depression made her a bad Christian. Now she’s an author and speaker who helps others discover that mental illness doesn’t disqualify them from living rich, beautiful lives in Christ. Drawing from a decade of ministry experience and the mental health field, Sarah helps readers fight for wholeness and cultivate joy. She lives in Nashville with her husband.


Reviews

Goodreads review by K.J. on May 11, 2021

In I Love Jesus But I Want to Die, Robinson places a candle in the middle of our darkness. By talking about things Christians have too long kept hidden and hushed, she gives us room to hear our truest name: Beloved. (From my official endorsement)......more

Goodreads review by Jake on May 07, 2021

Simply put, this is one of the best books I've ever read regarding mental illness as a Christian within the Church. Do you have people who suggest you don't pray enough or have enough faith because you suffer from mental illness? Do you feel an additional shame from the Church regarding your mental......more

Goodreads review by Kailey on May 03, 2021

As someone who has struggled with depression for so long, I can't recommend this book enough. We live in a society where mental illness isn't talked about. This book makes us take a look at it. If you or someone you love struggles with depression I would recommend reading this! I received a complimen......more

Goodreads review by katie on July 23, 2024

this is the most healing book i have ever read regarding suicide and self harm and depression and hopelessness and faith. i couldn’t just pull one quote, so i’m giving you the ones that spoke to me the most out of many, many more!! “we have to wonder what it means if God is able to heal but doesn’t h......more

Goodreads review by Terese on April 30, 2021

Wow, this book. Wow. It was the title that really drew me to this book, as someone who has struggled with mental health, and who now spends time as a mental health support counselor for young adults, I hoped that this book would give me insight into how I may become better at supporting those who see......more


Quotes

“Robinson’s soothing tips and sage advice should go a long way toward helping those in need of assistance.”—Publishers Weekly